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"All the people on the street know."

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 06:35:08 GMT

Hebrews 11:6

And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.

Life is interesting lately.

Phantom of the Opera was wonderful. At least that's what mom says, and I'm glad she thinks so, because it was for her. The beginning was the best part, with the raising of the chandelier and the music starting.....and I would so go again. :)

Persuasive essay doesn't sound very persuading. I have another week before I turn it in, but I confess, this is a challenging piece for me. Wasn't sure if I'd ever say this...but Lord knows I'll be glad when English 101 is over.

I cannot deny that I am blessed all the time, because God is good all the time. However, I do feel blessed lately. I'm enjoying fellowship, prayer, cold weather, and Starbucks. God, may I not take these things for granted.

Even after these long silences....I still want to write that best seller.

Just thought it should be said.

"It's that time of year, leave all our hopelessness's aside"

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 06:04:44 GMT

Psalm 17: 6-8

I call upon you, for you will answer me, O God; inclinde your ear to me; hear my words.

Wondrously show your steadfast love, O Savior of those who seek refuge from their adversaries at your right hand.

Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings,

Psalm 19:14

"Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer."

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 18:44:23 GMT

My college class has us doing observation essays. Supposedly, the observation essay is one of the hardest essays to write. It's been my favorite one so far though :) I'm really hoping to get a hundred percent on this one, but we'll see, right?

Next up we have to do persuasive essays. At first I was going to use abortion as my topic, then I decided on recycling instead. Now I just don't know, and I am nervous about this essay. Why? It's not that I don't have strong beliefs, because I do. I just don't think any of my beliefs are five pages long.

Work is anything but fun lately. Not just for me, but for my mom and dad too. I know work isn't supposed to be "fun" but does it have to be so lame? I sort of had a mini-breakdown over the weekend and I'm not sure how I'm going to get through the holiday season at Wild Flower. It's busy and work is not equally given. God, I know it is in your hands.

I just hate feeling like I don't glorify my savior at my job anymore. Or did I ever?

My writing has come to a stand still (yes, again) and I think I may have to force the issue. Regardless of whether or not it turns out silly, I have to make the time to do it.

You always have to make the time.

"I show no mercy for you, you show no mercy for me."

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 17:56:43 GMT

Here is another tattoo possibility:

Personally, I like this tattoo better on the back than the previous one I showed. I think the bassclef/treble clef heart in my last post would look better on the side of the body.

Financial aid for next semester does not look promising as I'd hoped. So, praying that this is what God wants me to do, I've begun saving for classes I'd like to take in the Spring. I want to start Math (because I have three semesters of it to complete); English 102 (because first, I'm good at English, and second, this will be the last of the English classes I need to take); and Aural Perception--one of a few classes I need to take to meet my Music Major requirements.

I'm kind of excited...:)

Also, here's a special shout out to mi madre, because her birthday is tomorrow.

Happy birthday mom!!!!!!!

She's turning eighteen. Yep, it's true. I know that's kind of weird, since she's with my dad. But hey, love is love. :P (haha)

So the time I spent blogging I could have been working on an essay that's due oh, tomorrow.

"This is the way I would have done this, up against the wall"

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 18:37:00 GMT

Hehe :)

Two things I fear;

Firstly, am I spending too much time daydreaming these days? I worry that I spend too much time in my world than in this one.

Secondly, I don't write much any more. I'm not creative any more. Is that because of my daydreaming? Do I spend too much time pining, not enough time writing?

In other news, I have been pondering a possible tattoo. This is what it looks like:

And in other other news, been worried about my dad lately. He just acts so much differently than mom. I can't explain it. Or, I could, but don't really want to.

End (for now).

"How you make a boy feel"

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 18:33:09 GMT

Habakkuk 2:3

"For still the vision awaits its appointied time; it hastens to the end--it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay."

Some things do seem at a delay.

But Fall came, and it is here, is it not?

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 19:06:03 GMT

Been coming down sick since Wednesday and I've been so agitated at everyone and everything because of it. Well, that's mostly the reason for my agitation. I'm not entirely sure why or how I even got on this emotional rollercoaster. But I'm on it...so now how do I get off of it?

No luck finding a new job, for me or mom. Though I confess she's been a lot more diligent about looking for work than me. Yet again I've decided to stick out WF, at least for now. I believe God wants me to count my blessings while I'm there. WF is flexible with my limited availability and I do like most of my coworkers. My dream for next year is to be a full or 3/4 time student at community college. The Lord can do anything right? It's worth praying about.

My dress for PotO got here a few days ago. It's not as awesome as I thought it would be but I'll still wear it. Some time this week I need to start shopping for heels or pumps to go with it.

It's after one now, so I probably should make an attempt for breakfast. Hehe, my schedule is kind of weird right now.

"More than once or twice, it keeps me up at night."

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 06:21:14 GMT

"There's no time for sleep."

So you know that Vampire Diaries show? The pilot was actually kinda good. I so didn't think it would be. Now I can't wait for the next episode, but I think I'm having friends over the night its on. Guys, I don't care if you aren't into vampires. I must watch it. Heh (:

Tips are totally picking up at my job! Yayyy! However, on the down side, we are getting a lot busier. So long, summer time. AKA WF's dead season.

I feel bad. I feel that me and my family are kind of detached from church right now. It sucks. I think people should feel excited to go to church. But I don't even set an example of that. For the past year, church is lame. I'm sorry, Lord.

The roughdraft for my first college essay is due on Monday. I have good ideas for the essay, but I just can't seem to get them out. It's like they're stuck up there in my noggen or something. I'm getting nervous because it feels like the longer I wait, there's a ticking time bomb waiting to go off. I think that bomb represents my failure. But I refuse to sink, this early in the semester, and with one class.

I was talking to a friend the other night, and I told her I wish that me and her could just drive to Disneyland. Leave work and school, and just head out for cooler weather and hugs from Cinderella.

Hehehe (:

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 18:29:52 GMT

So yeah, I love the above picture. :)

Mom and I have been praying and praying, asking the Lord how we could go see Phantom of the Opera later this year. Long story short, I was able to get tickets for a really good price, and mom and I will be seeing the show on November 1st, and neither of us have seen the actual opera before. We are both way excited--I've already bought a new dress for the show. This is mom's birthday present, but I told her that she owes me Chinese food anyway.

Looking for work has been kind of bleak. No nibbles as of yet. I've been pondering applying at Starbucks for some time though.

My English 101 class is fun, at least to me. In the spring I may sign up for Math and Astronomy. Astronomy would be interesting. Math not so much.

I'm tired today. Though I'm not sure why.

I'm not sure at all.

"I must be dreaming."

We like to watch you...

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 05:31:00 GMT

laughing. (:

So my head pretty much feels like its gonna explode. This headache has been with me all night--starting at work, around five hours ago. Argh!!

I got tomorrow off from work, yay! I honestly thought I'd have to work it, but at the last minute, someone was able to cover for me. I haven't had a Saturday off in what seems like forever. Nor have I had a reason to actually take a Saturday off. However, that's changed, and I'm glad.

So everyone I know is broke, broke, broke. Yet even though they're broke, they still talk about all the things they'd like to have--myself included. It's so hard lately, not to get caught up with these ever growing lists of things we want. It's like in your mind the negatives outweigh the positives.

So what's next on the agenda? Well, since you asked...

I think I'll finish my book, ponder yet again what I should wear tomorrow, fawn over the things I can't have in the Ulta catalogue.....and pretty much just be chillin.